Chixe

I don't even know where to start, but I guess here. I am currently separated from my husband with no indication we will be getting back together. One of the reasons we split is lack of compassion (you know what I mean) on his part. I happen to be a very compassionate person and love it. I started a new job approximately 7 months ago. The office is small and I work closely with my boss. He is not much older than I am, single, intelligent, and attractive. When I first started to get to know him, I did not think he was all that attractive, but since we have grown closer...he is a beautiful person inside and it is very attractive on the outside. One night I had a friend over at the office and offered her wine and she accepted. My boss stated he would like a glass well a glass turned into several bottles of wine and lots of laughs. Apparently, I was feeling a little good and came on to him. I did not realize prior to this incident that I was attracted to him. I seriously do not remember a large portion of the night, I rarely drink and I drank to much (obviously). I had no idea when I came in the next morning except that I probably made a fool of myself. We discussed the incident at length and I realized that he had said No the night before to me. I was a little hurt that he said no, but totally understood. He laughed it off and said that he was tempted, but this will never work. Last Thursday night, we went out for a few drinks (I wanted to prove that I was well behaved) and this time he turned around on the steps and held my waist. I think I grabbed his hand, but again nothing happened. He said that he is frustrated that we can't do anything. I agree that it is inappropriate and would probably make things hard at work. There would be no advancement with sleeping with him. I am educated and paid well so I am not looking to get ahead because I have no room to advance. I would love to have this "sexual romance" and have it end there, but we all know how us women get all emotional and it could end very badly. We have a lot in common and are very good friends to boot. So I am completely confused about this. I am sure if I presented the opportunity again, it would turn out differently, but is that good? You hear all these stories about how terrible it could end, but could this end on a good note? Or am I just kidding myself? I am not sure if he is what I want or I have been lacking in the affection dept for years and he is available and possibly willing so I am confusing the feelings. Help please.